The following email was waiting for me on Monday morning, September 23.
I hope this finds you well. I know you are fairly busy on a regular basis but I needed to share this with you.
I think I need to be baptized. I’ve never told anyone that until this morning. I talked to Rob about it this morning and told him I needed to tell you as well. It’s true. I was baptized when I was in 2nd grade. I wasn’t saved- I just wanted to make my parents proud and also get in the big baptistry. It was like an indoor pool so who wouldn’t right?
Anyway, I don’t want to do it for a lot of reasons – pride being the main one. Vanity another. But, this morning while I was praying I felt scattered and just asked God if there was a reason I couldn’t focus. A single word popped into my head. “Baptized” and that was all. It was like the letters were huge and lit up inside my head and then they faded.
This isn’t the first time I’ve struggled with this. Every time I see someone get baptized I hear “you should be next”. I just push it down and tell myself [technically tell God] that I’m good. I’m doing everything else (Bible, pray, teach, minister). But I haven’t DONE everything. I have literally fought this.
I don’t want to do it and I will probably try to weasel out of it. That’s why I had to put it out there. At home we’ve been talking a lot about and praying about living radically and throwing out the “American Dream” that says we are fine just the way we are, living the way we live – comfortably. I can’t live radically and be disobedient at the same time. I can’t “go into all the world and make disciples baptizing them…” If I’ve never been baptized. ANYWAY, now it’s out there.
Pray for me. I don’t want to do this.
And this was my reply
Wow! This the kind of email I enjoy receiving.
I say we baptize you on Sunday, October 6. What do you say? If not then, we will shoot for the first Sunday in November.
As for the radical life, let me encourage you. I feel like I have lived and am living a radical life by loving the Lord, loving Vonda and the kids, discipling them, getting them educated and on their own, all the while serving CrossPoint. I think you and Rob are already living a radical life as well. I define radical as consistency in Christ, remaining faithful to Him, serving and loving others. So, with that definition you are already living radically.
I love you and I am proud of you. So, let’s get you baptized.
What about you? Do you need to get baptized?